Mysterium

Given I'm supposedly one of the 166 graduating students of UPSE this semester - never mind that our thesis adviser told my TP and me that our first draft was pangit - I tried to support the Grad Comm by finding their booth in the UP Fair. K had told me they were hosting a tarot card reading, palm reading, occult-ish booth, so the night of Loverage5 I dragged R to a likely-looking table lit by a single candle.

R had her future read first - 3 questions, 50 pesos. Cute questions, actually, although I doubt I'm allowed to share them here - heads up though, one was about marriage. I had my 3 questions read next, but unfortunately, it turns out Mr. Raider Waite reader was too tired to predict my future properly, so Miss Gnome took over. And my three questions:

Q: Sinong makakatuluyan ko?

A: You're thinking of someone, but that person is not The One. If you push your luck with him, you will end up being vain and bitter [ano 'to, Desiderata???] because he will always make you feel like you're never good enough for him.

Q: Makakatulong ba ako sa Pilipinas someday?

A: No. You have to fix yourself first, because you don't know who you are. For some reason, you're trying to hide your bubbly-happy self, hiding behind a straight-laced, by-the-book persona. So to help your country, you have to let go first.

Q: Anong magandang i-second degree?

A: Do not take something just to spite anyone. Take something you really want.

And my analysis:

I'm not thinking of any guy in particular!!! [Although, yes, like any boyfriend-less person, I do have an image of my ideal guy - go ahead, guffaw.] I get the reading though, about not letting Imaginary Guy take over reality - 'cause if I keep trying to find someone just like him, I'll... never find anyone, haha.

The second answer was a let-down. Miss Gnome said something about learning to be vain because I was too selfless, which is completely off. [I'm completely selfish, only I don't tell people because I roll that way.] It's cool though, how she knew I'm reserved and strict compared with most people my age - or maybe it's in my face?

And re: the last question. Uh. Sorry. Doesn't help at all. Didn't you just say I don't know myself well enough? And now you're telling me I should stick with what I want to do???

[But please, visit their home site: mysteriumphilippines.org. It's actually kind of cool, knowing we have an occult academy in the Philippines.]

How to be a YouTube Celebrity

Lunch with Paraluman Conspiracy earlier today. It's a sorta-habit of ours to meet up at least once a month, for dinner or lunch, or whatever. We try to talk about things, like who's dating who - and other less gossip-ish stuff, of course. And walking home, it struck me how different N and T are now compared to their old, freshie selves.

About two or three years ago, I could still keep up with their conversations about music, about books, and about artsy-fartsy films. But now, I can't even put in my two cents' worth about T's fanfiction.net rebirth - as if I'd lost all capacity to elicit an opinion from my inner depths or something. It's as if... I've stagnated, and they've grown so much more than I have. Kind of sad, really, not being able to relate fully to your friends.

So I pondered on what I've been doing these past three years, what I've been doing that caused me to veer off the shared track of N and T. And I realized, I haven't been doing anything at all. Except, maybe, finish about twenty anime series, befriend half the Asian romcom celebrity sphere, and write tons of fanfic crap. Which, really, isn't much. Wow. Three years of regression.

But enough ranting. My latest addiction this week is YouTube. I've discovered some really fun people through it, like my future husband kevjumba, my future groomsman nigahiga, and my future bridesmaid happyslip. I'd totally embed their vids here, only I don't know how to... embed. So anyway.

J asked me why I like kevjumba more than I like nigahiga. Tough question - after all, nigahiga's more popular. Thing is, though, I think Kevin's actually a really serious person once you get to know him - the competitive, irritable type who involuntarily hides behind a comedian persona. I like that in people - knowing they have layers you have to peel to get to know who they truly are. Plus, Kevin's got a much cooler voice, and his editing is better than nigahiga's. And I like how he allots a portion of his YouTube royalties to charities - plus points, too, for his cute relationship with his dad.

So yeah, just me, ranting.